Monday, July 14, 2014

Baby #3 - 38 Weeks!

Here we are...last weekly post of this pregnancy! I will try and post at least once more before the baby comes, but I'm not making any promises.  I will try and be good about posting random pics to IG so that you all know I am still hanging in there. If I do go into labor on my own (smart money is on 'not in this lifetime') I will post updates as best I can, so make sure to follow me @growingupmaine if you don't already!!

Baby stats: Who knows at this point! He is still putting on weight and with one full week to go even I can't predict if I think he will be bigger than his brother or not (8lbs6oz). It would make sense if he is a little smaller considering he will be delivered a week before his brother was but this belly is just SO big.

Bump picture: 

Matt and I took a few minutes to recreate the maternity picture we took when I was 37 weeks along with Ben. The backdrop is certainly nicer this time around! The kids didn't really participate like we were hoping so if we get another bright morning I think we might try one more time. That poor yellow tshirt is really working hard, haha. 

How you doin'?: The baby is definitely dropping, or has dropped. All of the sudden I am finding it very difficult to stand up straight. My lower back has started to hurt a little too. Only one more week, one more. The best thing about this new position is that I can finally breathe again! I am not loving that now the baby has a little more room for kicking me in the ribs...I think he is still sunny side up given the placement of his bony little knees and feet. 

I am grateful that as of today I still have the energy to clean and nest like a fool all while chasing after the kids. Matt has been helping more with the cooking and meal prep which is great because it is the one thing I really don't feel like doing these days. As of today all of the rooms have been thoroughly cleaned and organized. I unpacked five boxes today!! There is one room (the loft room) that has become the catch all for all of the boxes that we still have not unpacked. My goals for tomorrow are to clean the fridge, grocery shop, and organize the remaining boxes. The only remaining 'big job' is to wash the floors and hopefully I will get that done on Wednesday. I love the motivation that comes with the last few weeks of pregnancy!!

I have my last OB appointment on Wednesday. I am confident that he will check my cervix only to find that yet another week of false labor has done nothing to increase my chances of going into labor on my own. It's ok, I played the horrible head games at the end with Ben and I won't even go there this time. No matter what, baby boy will be here one week from today!

Aversions/Cravings: I am officially averse to cooking. It just seems so labor intensive! As for the food when I don't feel like cooking I really don't feel like eating. I have to make a list for the grocery store tomorrow or I will come home with a cart full of nonsense that the kids will be pleased about but probably won't equate to a single meal.

Sleeping: Not much. I am tossing and turning a lot. I get up to pee a lot. I always get the best sleep early in the night, it all goes down hill after 2:30am. Let me tell you this right now, this is not good practice for when the baby comes. Anyone who dares say that to a tired pregnant lady should really be ready to run in the other direction. No mother has ever said to her husband after a particularly long night, "Thank goodness I was sleeping so terribly toward the end of my pregnancy, it was GREAT practice!"

Movement: He has been by far my most active baby. There are still nights that I ask Dingle to take a shift applying counter pressure to my belly so that I can fall asleep. As I type this he is kicking away with all his might.

Milestones: I don't really think I have passed any new milestones since last week but I did realize that I have officially been pregnant every calendar day of the year...that is sort of cool huh?

I am looking forward to: Announcing this baby's arrival!!

Worries: Ugh, there are so many things that could go wrong or be wrong with the baby but I am trying to keep all of those worst case scenarios out of my mind. It won't do me any good to go down that road. I have absolutely no reason at all to think that this little boy is anything less than perfect.

Let's compare: 

I think my nesting energy is surging later than it did with my other two.

I walked literally miles and miles hoping to induce labor with my other two, this time I have zero interest in doing any extra walking.

I finally ordered the baby a few new things on Sunday. Up to this point I literally have not bought him a single thing. Nothing too exciting but we needed to restock some baby essentials (like burp clothes) and I bought just a few things that will be 'his' (like his coming home outfit!).

Best moment of the week: Lots of highs this week!

Blackbeary came home all on his own. The weather has been ridiculously beautiful. I had a glorious mani/pedi at a spa yesterday.

Lily said something hilarious that I just have to get down so that it is never forgotten. We were getting in the car to head to the store and it was really hot inside. As I was getting everyone settled she proclaimed loudly, "Mommy it is hotter than a chicken nugget in here!" OMG, I laughed for 20 minutes.

We are all ready and waiting on you baby boy. We love you so much and can hardly wait one more minute to meet you!

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Baby #3 - 37 Weeks!

I know I skipped my 36 week post, but my sister was here and we were far too busy relaxing and crafting some adorable projects for the kids' rooms. She and Dingle were also busy drinking beers but since she always offers me the first sip I let them enjoy their beverages without too many guilt trips.

I would have had this post published 'on time' but Monday night our indoor cat got out. After nearly two hours of calling to him, and a 30 minute thunderstorm, he did not return. We still haven't seen any sign of him despite literally doing everything feasible in the last 48 hours to find him. All we can do now is wait and try to remain optimistic. It really is a terrible feeling not knowing what on earth could have happened to him.

Tuesday night (last night) my mom was here, spending the night so that I could take her to the airport at 5am today. I was all set to sit down and finish this post when my dad called to say that my mom's flight had been canceled. My parents literally have the worst travel karma of any people I know. Long story short she ended up canceling her trip but still spent the night because I was too lazy to drive her home after 8:30pm.

So here we are Wednesday, again.  In less than two weeks baby boy will be here!

Baby stats: The baby center email that arrived in my inbox this week was downright cruel....unintentionally I suppose. All I could read of the body on my phone said, "Your Pregnancy 37 Weeks! - Has baby arrived?" No, no the baby has most definitely NOT arrived, but thanks for asking! At this point he is fully developed but will continue to put on weight while he hangs out and waits for his eviction date. I started having babies way back when 37 weeks was considered "full term", apparently that has changed with some practitioners. I really couldn't care less what anyone calls it...this baby is fully cooked!

Bump picture: 

36 Weeks 

37 weeks 
How you doin'?: I love being pregnant, I do. I know how annoying that sounds. I am going to miss the big belly and the all day baby dance party when baby boy is on the outside. I don't mind the small discomforts I am feeling these days. I know that there are some poor mamas out there who had major pains and a laundry list of pregnancy related  'side effects' that really and truly made them miserable. I count my blessings every single day that at nearly 38 weeks pregnant my biggest 'complaint' is that my clothes are uncomfortable.

Yes I have a few things going on right now that I do not love; nightly heartburn, leg cramps, cankles, and an early afternoon crash that hits like clockwork at 1:30pm. I know I was still working at this point with Lily but all of that is such a blur. I imagine by the end of the day I was pretty freaking tired. I have one very vivid memory of being brought nearly to tears because I had to cover a study hall on the opposite side of the building and up two flights of stairs and I only had four minutes to get there...and at 39 weeks pregnant it might as well have been on the moon! With Ben I was just starting to get hit with allergy season so I was miserable but not because I was pregnant. This time around, what can I say, with all of the sickness behind me I am really content to just ride out these next 12 days.

I am nesting like a crazy person. I will never understand the evolution of such a desperate urge to clean underneath the refrigerator (seriously I will kill someone if this task does not get done) while simultaneously being unable to see my own feet. I am trying to go room by room and one day at a time so that I don't end up getting in over my head (i.e. throwing every article of clothing my family owns into the middle of the living room so that I can refold and put it all away 'neatly'. This action will without a doubt cause me to go into immediate and urgent labor resulting in a total loss of sanity at the thought that my mother and father in law, upon seeing laundry mountain, would have an unfiltered view directly into my crazy). :::waves hi to Mimi::::
ANYWAY, today I folded and put away the kids clothes and meticulously vacuumed every square centimeter of their bedrooms. Tomorrow I move on to the bathrooms.

Contractions, contractions, SO many contractions. I get tired of timing them to be honest. I am pretty confident that they are doing absolutely nothing. Last night they were about 5 minutes apart for the better part of The Late Show...and then I fall asleep. I will say that I am legitimately in awe of a bodily mechanism that can be timed to the second. I may not be great a birthing babies the old fashioned way but man does my body keep good time!

Aversions/Cravings: Meh, sad to report that food is just food again. I eat to avoid feeling unwell. I have absolutely zero desire to cook. I would still trade you my left arm for an ice cold summer ale in a tall frosty glass.

Sleeping: Ok. My mind is very busy with nesting all night long so I have been having a harder than usual time falling asleep. Staying asleep these days isn't happening either but so long as I don't feel dead tired when I wake up I can usually keep my spirits up.

Movement: Still moving A LOT, especially when I am having contractions. I actually googled it to see if it was 'normal' (it is) for a baby to become more active during contractions. Like I said I will miss it when it is not part of my day.

Milestones: I have officially gained 30 lbs. After tomorrow I will have just one OB appointment scheduled before my c-section.

I supposed this next one is a milestone...some might say right of passage ?? ... I have my first ever stretch mark. SO SAD. It is on the underside of my enormo-belly and has probably been there for a awhile but I will fully admit I was super bummed when I first saw it.

I am looking forward to: The final days as a family of four. We are heading to the beach on Friday to spend the morning together. There are a few other little things I would like to do, but for the most part just soaking in these precious days.

Worries: There are a few things that I have started to worry about but more than anything I was struck by something Dingle asked me the other night. He is a little worried that I will have postpartum depression this time, thinking that this is 'it' for us. He isn't wrong, if I allow myself to think "this is the last time that..." thoughts I do think I will be overcome by sadness. I am not going to go there. The fact is, unless something happens during this baby's birth that would prevent me from carrying another baby, nothing is ever really off the table.

I am a little worried about my hormones in general. I am already feeling very torn about being away from my kids while I am recovering in the hospital. I suspect that will be very hard on me. I am also worried about the 'mama bear' feelings I am already having in regard to the new baby. In the past Matt and I have had a few days at home alone with the new baby before the cavalry arrived. This time with so much family around, which we are blessed to have obviously, I am already not wanting to 'share'.  All I can do is cross that bridge when we get there.

Let's compare: 

Coasting through the final weeks in relative comfort...for the third time!

Hormones in general have been kicked in to high gear, a little early this time around.

I've officially gained the most weight with this baby.

Best moment of the week: Impossible to pick just one from my sister's visit. The beach was a highlight for sure. Summer in general is just so awesome.