A quickie update

I spent what little "free time" I had today typing up Ben's birth story and doing some updates to the blog. Ben's story now has it's own tab! Also, I updated the bump watch photos to include the last few weeks of my pregnancy.

We are hanging in there. Ben is not a good sleeper, at all. In fact I would go so far as to say he is a horrible sleeper. Last night, for example, I slept from 10:45pm until 11:45pm and then not again until almost 6:30am. The nights are long and filled with fussy grunting, squirming, lame attempts at nursing, hours of burping and rocking. I am exhausted. Matt is exhausted from trying to work and take care of Lily full time. The cherry on top is that our allergies have been killing us, Lily included. There is nothing more sad than a bleary eyed toddler with a snotty nose crying to be held like a baby. Happy Saturday! :::sigh:::

Things will get better. I am completely head over heals in love with my children and so grateful that they are both healthy. All in all I am such a lucky mommy, just a little tired.

If you think my hands are full, you should see my heart.

Benjamin Daniel 

Born April 30th, 2012 at 11:34am

Weight: 8lbs 5oz

Length: 20 in

Perfect in every way. 

I will, of course, type up and post Ben's birth story but for now a picture summary will have to do. I doubt I will get too many complaints. (Side note: This is my 100th post, which I thought was pretty cool)

One last update

My OB had me go in for an u/s and the great news is that baby is healthy...completely out of room, but happy as can be. Another plus, my fluid levels are great. The only down side is that he is "sunny side up" (face up). As a result the back of his head and shoulders are pressing on my cervix (which I knew because holy hell does it hurt if I get up too fast). My OB thinks the reason my cervix is not dilating, despite frequent contractions over the last week, has to do with how much pressure my 9lb baby is putting on the opening. Some pressure good, too much pressure and the cervix can't open.

Long story short he doesn't think I will be going into labor on my own by Monday. Of course anything can happen but most likely I will be having a c-section on the 30th. If I do go into labor this weekend, given baby's positioning, it is likely that I will need a c-section anyway. The u/s tech estimated that he weighs between 8.5-9 lbs. 

While I am certainly a little sad to have my VBAC chances diminished, I have nothing in the world to feel "sorry" about, I am going to hold my baby in my arms on Monday!!! 

Now I just have to find a way to occupy myself until then :)  

Caged animal

I literally can NOT believe I am still pregnant. I mean that not as a complaint, simply a statement of fact.

Every five minutes I look down at my belly and yell, "ARE YOU KIDDING ME??!?" - Okay maybe I don't actually yell, or maybe I do.

When I was pregnant with Lily I had absolutely no "early labor" signs. I was also working full time and trying my damnedest to work right up until my due date. Lily was born at 40w6d, only after I was induced for low fluid the day before. In other words, she wasn't going anywhere on her own. This time around I have been having these phantom labor signs for 10 days. On three separate occasions in the last 5 days I have had contractions 10 minutes a part for an hour, only to have them stop completely. Of course two of those occasions were in the middle of the night. Anyone care to guess how much Lily cares that mommy didn't sleep the night before? Ha. Point being, it is starting to mess with my head.

I like being pregnant and if I didn't feel like I was on a slow death march to my scheduled c-section I would happily carry the baby well into next week. But I do have a deadline and I am starting to feel like I am running out of time. Adding to the caged feeling, every tree in my neighborhood is trying to kill me in full bloom. It is commonly known by my friends and family that my allergies are no joke. During my allergy test a few years ago the nurse thought she was going to have to send me to the ER in an ambulance when my arm blew up to three times its normal size after she administered the prick test. Instead, I passed out and was given a cortisone shot intended for someone twice my size...and then I threw up! Maple, Oak and Pine are my big three. I tried to go outside with Lily this morning for some play time, but after only 20 minutes my mouth, nose, and eyes were on FIRE. A few minutes later I started to wheeze (which scared the bejesus out of me) and we came running back inside. I spent the next hour in absolute misery. Sufficed to say the house is now on lock down and all windows and doors are to remain closed until further notice. I bet you are dying to come over for a visit! I am most disappointed that we won't be able to go for any more long walks. As much as my feet and hips were killing me, I felt like I was at least doing something to help move things along. Plus it gave me something to do. I suppose we could go and walk the mall, barf.

I am so bored, so very bored. I told Matt today that if I refresh my facebook feed one more time today... they are going to revoke my account. The house is clean. The laundry is washed, folded and put away. The grocery shopping is done. The bags are packed. WHAT IS THIS KID WAITING FOR?!?

My sister gets in tonight, here's hoping!!